Ponder

I'd have no clue how these words are going to shape shift as I type away - cause if you had known how many times I undid what I wrote, you might take away my blogger card! And as I keep at this, I wonder how the authors out there keep churning up volume after volume of books and get them to be bestsellers and motion pictures. 

I don't know where to place the blame for this stagnation of sorts. No, I wouldn't call this a block anymore - this is a full blown creative rut! I keep searching far and wide for the reasons to blame my stagnation now - instead of searching  for topics to blog about. Come to think of topics, it isn't as if I have a dearth of them. I had been making a list of things I wanted to ponder over. Given the fact that the last few months have been a rollercoaster of emotions, I do have a plethora of things to rave and rant about - but it could be the infamous female hormones that hijack my flow and launch me into a stupor. But excuses aren't a tender as of now, to flake out on the task so here I go blabbering away!

A part of this confidence to blabber perhaps comes from the comfort of talking to myself I guess. For all practical purposes, this space feels like an abandoned castle in the middle of the woods, that kids from nearby neighborhoods discover and make hubs out of! I swear I heard a friend (from Scotland) telling me that he and his brothers used to haunt the nearby abandoned castles and play away - I think some of those have become heritage sites lately!

And then, a gingerly caution creeps in. What if someone is going to stumble upon this place and find all these scribbles? I mean, imagine the horror - or may be don't imagine it! If we are to dance like no one is watching, why not write like no one is reading? Anyway, I don't think I have any hopes for privacy when a thought/ place/ product that crosses my mind manifests into my feed in a week or less. Privacy is a dinosaur. Extinct!!

So yeah, the diverse and intense few months I had in 25 so far did leave me with a whole clutter of thoughts to ponder upon, only if I found the peace to look through them and pick one at a time. And that's exactly what I am trying to do as I aimlessly type away.

To be continued....

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