Friday, April 02, 2021

A-Z Day 2 - B for Because





I jumped on the A-Z challenge because I realized my daily grind is taking over my life and I am not doing the one thing that I consistently loved since I was a child. That one thing is writing. I remember having small notepads with scribbles of random words and doodles that didn't make sense to anyone except yours truly. Writing was my consistent companion, my best friend that soaked in a processed all things life threw at me. And with this challenge, I sign up for a commitment to keep at it, only to realize how much I need to stay in touch with this writing side of me - this catharsis, this metamorphosis, this coping mechanism through the maze called life, and reducing it to a task that needs to kick in my programmed commitment is kind of a paradox, I also realize. But thanks to the course corrections that come at us, when we least expect. This challenge is definitely a gentle nudge to me, into bringing this stray back to the writing therapy.

So a huge Thank You to the Universe, to the creators and the participants, including me - given that I look at myself as a third party. Well, I need to check back with my parents about the number of times I was dropped on my head since everyone that knows me enough is pretty convinced that I was dropped atleast once. Now circumstantial evidence points at multiple times, as you might agree by now ;)

"Because" comes very handy to me. Being the pseudo intellectual that I am, I enjoy breaking down things, making sense out of the world around me and the age old 'program' that looks for the commitment "Because" to keep at the ambition of doing the mildly ambitious things my otherwise non ambitious self signs up to do.

But this "Because" led me to some epiphanies as I was pseudo meditating this afternoon, while in my mind's eye, there was this word "Because" that popped up as a sign. Then I deduce that this because is as important as it isn't in my humble existence.

While I discovered that I do things "Because", there's a big chunk of my life that defies this word. I realized that I find myself on autopilot by and large, doing things without the customary "Because" preceding them. I sit here, feeling intensely blessed for all those things that defy the Because. All those things I do and I don't for what, or why. All those little acts of love I live through without a reason, without a season and without a preposition.

B dear Brethren that loves to blog - is for Being. The punch in the Human that's supposed to be.

Because there's no need of a because to Be in the Being.

:)




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