When I decided to join September Musing brigade, I got a bit of myself back - a bit that I thought I lost in the process of a the roller coaster called life. I leaped into it without much contemplation - as I think too much contemplation isn't going to put you in action much. That being said, thanks to this bumpy, hectic ride, I got back my - Spontaneity!
When I look back and reflect at the year so far, I feel this year had been a milestone of sorts. I had been through so much of self discovery and life changing findings. I started my quest into my spiritual side though I had always described myself as a spiritual being. I had read so much more of philosophy, psychology and some of physics and made the best out of everything I was greeted by. In a way, I had come of age :) In a way, I had gathered the courage, the self drive and the yearning to embark on an inner quest and I think this year had been the most important year of all in terms of learning and evolving as a human being.
I know I did a little bit of a cheating and catching up along the way of the month long blogging journey, but given all the impediments that crossed my path and all the demands on my time, I am kind of proud of myself that I stuck to my commitment. It also increased my blog tally - which, is a surge of sorts in my creative life. It got a little tricky around mid month, when I kept facing one unforeseen time vacuum after the other but I resolved to keep at it, come what may. I look at this completion as a small victory over all the inertia and hindrances that I was face to face with.
Going back to my findings so far, I look at my spiritual journey as ground breaking. It lent a very fresh perspective to life in general and the purpose of life in specific. I looked back and realized I named two of my posts "Surrender" in the past week. I let them be the way they are - as it kind of gives me a sneak preview into my state of mind right now. Surrender to the divine will. Life seems to have suddenly simplified, unraveled itself in all the clarity and wisdom I was fortunate enough to have chanced upon. The wisdom I gathered in books was perfectly supplemented by the situations I was put into all along. Which makes me only marvel a little more at the unfathomable intelligence that kind of has a unique program in place to every creature on earth.
My house if lighter now as well - both the literal and figurative lighter - with only the dark wood sprawling across all the surface. My eclectic, quirky, unexpected abode suddenly transformed into a tranquil, monochromatic space. I miss my spring green walls but am equally drawn into the soft grey and bright beige that got replaced. I look around and gasp, I look behind and gasp again....My life is as insignificant as it can get. I didn't do any discoveries to change the face of human life, I didn't churn up best selling writings nor did I accumulate any material possessions - notwithstanding, I find myself at a strange contentment, a peace that comes from deep within, a sense of achievement that shines in doing the pettiest of things with great passion.
Like I said, I don't have an elaborate list of achievements to my credit, but the little tasks take up, make up for it all. Be it grilling the perfectly moist paneer kebabs or sticking to a blog commitment amid a whirlwind of a month that perhaps put every test it could in my path to see if I'll falter.
I didn't! :) Yay!
PS - If you are still with me, try meditation. Thank me later :)
When I look back and reflect at the year so far, I feel this year had been a milestone of sorts. I had been through so much of self discovery and life changing findings. I started my quest into my spiritual side though I had always described myself as a spiritual being. I had read so much more of philosophy, psychology and some of physics and made the best out of everything I was greeted by. In a way, I had come of age :) In a way, I had gathered the courage, the self drive and the yearning to embark on an inner quest and I think this year had been the most important year of all in terms of learning and evolving as a human being.
I know I did a little bit of a cheating and catching up along the way of the month long blogging journey, but given all the impediments that crossed my path and all the demands on my time, I am kind of proud of myself that I stuck to my commitment. It also increased my blog tally - which, is a surge of sorts in my creative life. It got a little tricky around mid month, when I kept facing one unforeseen time vacuum after the other but I resolved to keep at it, come what may. I look at this completion as a small victory over all the inertia and hindrances that I was face to face with.
Going back to my findings so far, I look at my spiritual journey as ground breaking. It lent a very fresh perspective to life in general and the purpose of life in specific. I looked back and realized I named two of my posts "Surrender" in the past week. I let them be the way they are - as it kind of gives me a sneak preview into my state of mind right now. Surrender to the divine will. Life seems to have suddenly simplified, unraveled itself in all the clarity and wisdom I was fortunate enough to have chanced upon. The wisdom I gathered in books was perfectly supplemented by the situations I was put into all along. Which makes me only marvel a little more at the unfathomable intelligence that kind of has a unique program in place to every creature on earth.
My house if lighter now as well - both the literal and figurative lighter - with only the dark wood sprawling across all the surface. My eclectic, quirky, unexpected abode suddenly transformed into a tranquil, monochromatic space. I miss my spring green walls but am equally drawn into the soft grey and bright beige that got replaced. I look around and gasp, I look behind and gasp again....My life is as insignificant as it can get. I didn't do any discoveries to change the face of human life, I didn't churn up best selling writings nor did I accumulate any material possessions - notwithstanding, I find myself at a strange contentment, a peace that comes from deep within, a sense of achievement that shines in doing the pettiest of things with great passion.
Like I said, I don't have an elaborate list of achievements to my credit, but the little tasks take up, make up for it all. Be it grilling the perfectly moist paneer kebabs or sticking to a blog commitment amid a whirlwind of a month that perhaps put every test it could in my path to see if I'll falter.
I didn't! :) Yay!
PS - If you are still with me, try meditation. Thank me later :)
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