A-Z April Z for Zee to A

 

And it's a wrap. This challenge does so many wonderful things to my creative, emotional and overall wellness. When I sit and write every day of the week in April,  I realize how we put off things that are not time sensitive and the procrastination bug bites us.

The problem is that we think we have time.

That we have time and it'll come tomorrow. That we can take that trip, make that call, visit that loved one, catch up with that best friend or write that blog tomorrow. 

The problem is that we think we have time.

This month had been one of the hardest I went through. Meat grinder, roller coaster, free fall - all rolled into one. If this wasn't A-Z, I would have shunned this space indefinitely - trying to cope with the challenges I was put through. If it wasn't for this commitment I took seriously, I wouldn't have found this coping mechanism of writing it out and finding some strange strength to deal with this Class A beast called life.

There is no time. There is no tomorrow. There's no order to life. It is not just short - it is brutally, chaotically short. There is one moment. Here and Now. In the present. And right here in the present, the answers to all our problems magically surface and dissipate them.

The answer to the problem is "Do it now!"

And with that wisdom I mend a pained heart, and the show goes on. 

I hope we all find some Zen in every path we tread - The lovely trail, the busy road or the stroll through our keyboards to find the paradox of life.

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A-Z April Y for You

 

The map leading to the treasure

The fortune sought in good measure

Treading the path leading out

The footsteps march on a mission

Where do you see? What do you seek?

In this wonder of an existence.

Close your eyes - what do you perceive?

What happens to the outer - that's Deceive!

These heaps of things

What desire brings.

What do they add? What do they subtract?

Is there a profit greeting you at the bottom line?

Is the greed of accumulation

To success define?

Where do you wander

Looking for joy

For fulfillment, you seek a decoy.

This delusional path, futile and tough

Shun it, look within

YOU are enough!

A-Z April X for XOXO

 

I was contemplating over my writing journey and I remembered that I had a very weird web address for my blog when I first started. In my defense, It was 17 years ago. When I look back I was very innocent and yet to experience life in its full spectrum. In a very non-egoic way, I startle myself at the purity of thought and action I had back then. As life happened, the topography of my thought changed - so did my perception. While I have to say I grew up in the truest of senses, something in me misses my plain, trusting and untarnished younger version. Life had contaminated me in some ways and refined me in other ways. It was a good ride - an amalgam of bumpy and smooth, tranquil and turbulent. 

On the brighter side, I gave a form to an abstract spiritual side of me. In the past three years or so, I discovered meditation. It is funny how this 'mediation' thingy was something the significant other started on, around the same time as I started on my blog - but somehow, we never seemed to have discussed of this being an 'option' I should try as well. At long last though, it wasn't him that prompted me to do it. He perhaps believed in the fact that I should find it in myself to try it and it shouldn't be something that he should persuade me to do. I do however, started believing in the premeditation of things and our doors open when we are ready to walk through them. Sometimes there in no growth in our comfort zone. When the going gets tough, the tough gets going and we need some silence of the mind to maneuver through that. 

In a very metaphorical way, my blogging journey had corresponded with my life journey. In fact, every thought, every imagination, every inspiration I record in here, had been nothing less of meditation. It had brought me where I stand today. While life threw its blessings and hurdles, my writings got to the table the much needed company, contemplation and clarity to deal with the hauls.

And there was a supplement support system that helped me stream through this type A beast called life. Or should I say, supplements! - the Xs and the Os. Now tell me, which of them is a hug? and which of them is a kiss? I see conflicting opinions. But for me Xs are hugs. When life fails me, meditation helps. when meditation fails, the Xs helps - and I am so blessed that I had gotten so many of them - and in such assortment. For all those who held me when all else failed - XXX.  That includes the ones that wander or deliberate to this place to send me a virtual embrace by the giving me a drop of their precious time and thought.

May the world embrace Love in its purest essence.

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A-Z April - W for Wordless

 

A-Z V for Vagaries

I was half inclined to flake out of the challenge today. I know, the last lap. We are almost at the end of it and my commitment to commitment wasn't holding steam in the face of what my heart is going though as I broadcast my innermost pain in a public platform. I need a purge. There's a lump stuck in my throat.

But, the show that it is, and the 'must go on' factor kicks in, I feel the need to say what needs to be said when it could be said. My heart is missing a piece, my soul feels an inexplicable void as we bid a final good bye to our most loved friend and guide that had played the role of a blood bond in our lives, walked with us through thick and thin and loved us and our kids like his own.

SM - my dear soul brother - you'll be missed. I wanted to see you back from the ordeal and hug you once you got back to all of us. Since that isn't going to happen now, I send you a chunk of my heart. Soar high and guard us from above. Our days aren't going to be the same in your absence.

And my dear cyber brethren - live it up and love like you are going to lose it. One day we all are going to lose it and we never know, That one day could be today.