Sunday, October 24, 2021
Resonance
Monday, September 06, 2021
luvVerse
These structures
Like the abstract
Lugging me along into a void
Trust me it isn’t as dark as it sounds
Nor is it empty and dull
What if I said it is Full
To the brim?
There was a time when chronic intellect
Was the aim of the day..
Now al I seem to care is to care not!
These structures, the constructs, the constraints
Looking like connections
But being decoys
Somehow, now - they stand decoded!
And I was supposed to scribble in silence
Dabble in space…
But here I go…
LuvVersing..
Ceasing to fast forward or reverse!
Tuesday, August 31, 2021
Friday, July 23, 2021
reVerse
Sometimes
I wish I wasn’t this inclined to write
Or express elaborately in wordage!
Sometimes
I wish I didn’t need screens and keyboards
They seem more like barricades than bridges
Sometimes
I wish I just thought about you
And you knew..
And wish we had a silent conversation
Abstract, nothing close to being real
But more like Magic
More like Being!
Sometimes I wish I said nothing
But you get me like I hid nothing!
And we merged in the vacuum
Shunning all conventions
Leaving communication to muggles.
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Monday, July 19, 2021
Exotic
Thursday, July 15, 2021
adVerse
Tuesday, July 13, 2021
reVerse
Friday, July 09, 2021
Verse
Do you ever try,
To capture the deeps
The rhythms of the heart, the rhymes of the soul
Armed with the paraphernalia.,.donning the explorer hat.
I have a feeling that this’ll be a treasure hunt.
A camera dangles from the neck, eagerly waiting to arrest that moment
When what you mean seems to present itself a visual
You are a page in this spirit book, wait may be a chapter..
Or perhaps you are the whole entire book case with a sliding ladder..
Tucked into you, my many emotions, in illustrations,
You seem to expand into the neighborhood, the hometown
The country, the continent…
Then I see you as a globe, spinning on the axis of my love
Spreading into a luminous light…white! Iridescent..
I sit and jot down an entire word pile
Rested on one single sentiment- the expression of the unspoken
But the smile I let out when you top it and topple it..
This massive word heap, with your silence, your presence, your essence
I sprinkle these lines at you, like confetti
Conceding defeat at your feet!
Thursday, July 08, 2021
reVerse
Fabrics can be friends
The ones sewn into flattering forms
Wrapping my flesh in a cuddle, puddles of frills warming my skin
That Tee for example - I swear what I say is true
Conforms to my heart dousing those flutters and jitters in a secure swaddle
Almost making me feel like a newborn receiving skin to skin from the mother.
The color it bled takes an ombré effect, adding to its coze
Much like a parent’s warm smile.
The weft and warp softened to accommodate my rough edges
Sanding them.
I feel polished like a pebble in the way of a stream, in the garb of that Tee - like a bestie’s assuring smile, accompanied by a tight hug.
Sometimes the seams of that fabric blur and I see your skin
Where the Tee had been.
And you swaddle, cuddle and secure me in that embrace.
You could be my old, comfy tee - my old comfy tee could be you.
What amalgam of being loved!
Wednesday, July 07, 2021
Ooem
Thursday, June 10, 2021
subVerse
Thursday, June 03, 2021
Ponder
Wednesday, June 02, 2021
reVerse
Through the image if an I,
The illusion
I see more of them, those delusions
Filtered in sunshine
Feigning more facades.
I kick up my feet, giving them a respite
From treading through thorny pavers
Uncased in flesh strolling in a maze,
Encased in spirit, trying to unravel the tangles.
Through the crystal ball, I see
Seeking answers to rhetorics.
Does true love exist, beyond allegories
That adorn the walls…some above and some below
Some woven to represent a heart
Some framed in the voids of the walls
Urging the illusion I
To seek!
What does the I see?
What does the I listen in those silent speech bubbles
Violently adamant!
Nothing but the rhetoric echoing
Making the I speechless at its own irony!
Friday, April 30, 2021
A-Z April Z for Zee to A
And it's a wrap. This challenge does so many wonderful things to my creative, emotional and overall wellness. When I sit and write every day of the week in April, I realize how we put off things that are not time sensitive and the procrastination bug bites us.
The problem is that we think we have time.
That we have time and it'll come tomorrow. That we can take that trip, make that call, visit that loved one, catch up with that best friend or write that blog tomorrow.
The problem is that we think we have time.
This month had been one of the hardest I went through. Meat grinder, roller coaster, free fall - all rolled into one. If this wasn't A-Z, I would have shunned this space indefinitely - trying to cope with the challenges I was put through. If it wasn't for this commitment I took seriously, I wouldn't have found this coping mechanism of writing it out and finding some strange strength to deal with this Class A beast called life.
There is no time. There is no tomorrow. There's no order to life. It is not just short - it is brutally, chaotically short. There is one moment. Here and Now. In the present. And right here in the present, the answers to all our problems magically surface and dissipate them.
The answer to the problem is "Do it now!"
And with that wisdom I mend a pained heart, and the show goes on.
I hope we all find some Zen in every path we tread - The lovely trail, the busy road or the stroll through our keyboards to find the paradox of life.
Photo by Karolina Grabowska from Pexels
Thursday, April 29, 2021
A-Z April Y for You
Wednesday, April 28, 2021
A-Z April X for XOXO
Tuesday, April 27, 2021
Monday, April 26, 2021
A-Z V for Vagaries
Saturday, April 24, 2021
A-Z April U for Unfazed
Bowing to the Divine design
Balancing the ebb and flow
Let these footsteps tread
Understanding the transient
Unfolding the eternal
Yielding to the ultimate force!
Unfazed.
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Friday, April 23, 2021
A-Z April T for Tenacity
Thursday, April 22, 2021
A-Z April - S for Sublime
Tuesday, April 20, 2021
A-Z April - Q for Quiet the riot!
One of my many Spiritual masters - Ramana Maharshi said "The Highest instruction is transmitted in silence" Now, the customary dragging of my spiritual side into this banter has become quiet the ritual here, so the irony that my life is, I keep bantering and going in an incessant blah blah while wanting to dwell in the Quiet. Since this noise is a given, I should as well make it like I mean it. Isn't it? So I tackle the Qu with a hodgepodge of Qus' I say Qu since there isn't a word that could be spelt with Q without the u in tow - kind of like how my every noise is spelt with an intense intent to be silent. Makes sense? Or not Quiet?
Quality - the next word in my Qu Queue. In one of my recent reads, a modern spiritual master urges us to be in the present. The process of doing something is the purpose of doing it, he means to say - as in giving the hand on task our 100% attention without the end in mind. In other words, we should quiet the mind and do our duty with the concentration of a monk and that brings in the quality component to everything big and small we take up or touch.
Quest - What's yours? Mine is nothing. I have a quest, for nothing. For that calm in the mind, for that Zen, that full stop on the mental chatter. One day, I'll be nothing. I'm Quiet sure of that.
Quick - Be quick. Quick in giving and forgiving. Quick in helping, quick in loving. Quick in acting on that noble intentions - life is not just short, It is chaotically short. We are not sure of tomorrow. The now is where we should be, living it up - so don't put off that spreading of love.
Be quick, the clock is ticking.
Quaintness is something I love. Transport me to that word and I am in a mini mind vacation, smack dab in the center of a meaningless banter. Yes, I am quirky. Ask my parents, my besties, ask my first born - they'll vouch for it. Or just stick till the end of this. Don't let this balderdash quell you, and voila, you'll have proof without asking my near and dear.
What was I saying? Oh yeah! Quit that procrastination. We are not guaranteed anything in life except this very moment. This is it!
Quote - I won't end this with tonight. Instead, let me add a quirky twist - let me make this quintessentially me and not surprise myself by being coherent.
Let's move on to exhibit # 1
I cannot get over the perfection of this face - Isn't it like one of God's prized creations? I mean, that chin! That master stroke. I know this perfection of a specimen doesn't start with a Qu But the starting rhymes with a Qu - Ladies and Gentlemen - Jude law! one word. Wow!
I don't have pictures handy of exhibit # 2 but I see a similar kind of perfection in my second born's eyes - Lush lashes and the darkest of peepers with a sparkle that is unmatched. I know, it's a mother speaking - so please discount that, and this whole quasi blog entry.
I have no qualms about how nonsensical this is. I know it at least. I am not in denial.
I'll stop quipping now. I know it isn't funny. It is pathetic!
Monday, April 19, 2021
A-Z April - P for Percept
Saturday, April 17, 2021
A-Z April - O for One
Friday, April 16, 2021
A-Z April - N for Norcturnal Diaries.
I swear, I had a whole shebang of a blog going with that title and suddenly what happens? It all disappears. I could'nt undo it. So actually, when I started off the blog I wanted to write about N for Nothing and make it like a allegory of sorts with something psuedo profound. But my nocturnal diariy was going somewhere actually profound. I found a parallel for how I am a morning person just like I am an introvert but somehow end up doing the polar opposite of my inner index. And poof...It all disappeared.
Thursday, April 15, 2021
A-Z April - M is for Many things.
As I maneuvered through a very jam packed day, my mind kept going back to today's entry here. I really, really wanted to sketch a Matt and Bessie comic strip for today and I also thought of what they'd do and say - but there was a spontaneous energy the day had and I had to stream with it and put off the blog till the 11th hour, quiet literally. And when I think of what to write under this M header, nothing else came to mind. For a bit. And then, everything started coming at once so I decided to make a Multi many M for the day.
I recently put down Eckhart Tolle's 'A New Earth' and this time around, I really combed through the book, like I was doing some kind of a research project on what he had to say in there. The results are this new fond, and hopefully not temporaray moments of being Mindful. Tolle says that whatever moment we are in, is the purpose of our life. So, for now, my purpose is to write this blog, after which, my purpose would be to rest. In other words, he advices and does it like a broken record, to be in the present moment, devoid of all mental banter. I can go on and on about this topic, but the other Ms in the Matrix beckon to me. So,off I go.
I have many dear friends by God's grace - M is probably one of the dearest. He and I go back to quarter a century of friendship, which had been nothing less of wonderful. M and I don't constantly stay in touch, but when we get in touch, the time and distance melts into a heap of nothing. Of all the things I feel profoundly grateful for, M features in one of the few top slots. He has had my back through thick and thin and cherishes our bond of friendship like a blood bond. When I think of M, I feel safe, loved and blessed. So dear M - Thank you becomes a small word to offer for everything you gave me.
Talk about Meals and my ears perk up. Just today, on a week night, I got this opportunity to host some special friends over for dinner. The plan was sudden but when it comes to making meals, I take it up like a mission or a prayer perhaps. I thank God for my love of cooking and serving. Without which my life would have been a little less fulfilling.
Mommy dearest, aka the mother board turned a year older a few days ago. The more I age, the more pronounced it becomes, her influence on me. As different as mom and I are, I realize, so we are similar. A chunk of any merits I seem to have, I have to trace them back to her. She had inspired by example and left this huge impact on me that I am ever thankful for. Mommy dearest is someone that had moulded me to who I am today.
Before I call it a day, I would like to bring in another M - Mojo - I cannot for the life of me, figure out where mine comes from - so I give up and blame it on my Mentor - or Guru. Baba of Shirdi is one of those great souls to have walked on our planet and to call him my Mentor, I feel like the luckiest, most blessed soul in the world.
And by the way - Maya it is. This whole circus we call life. Never forget that, and if you did, which you definitely would - look no further than Meditation.
Meditation is cracked up to be this, that and what not. It is no rocket science, no math problem - It is. It just is. It just is being in this moment. Try it. Be here.
And the Magic unfolds here.
Merci! ;)
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Wednesday, April 14, 2021
A-Z April L for Let it