I should actually come up with a nice old original image, not necessarily funny or profound or meaningful, but original one for this bolg and all my blogs hereafter. Which gets me to the fact that Santoo the hippie younger bro is probably roaming about with my Nikon slr around his neck somewhere on the streets of Hyderabad (along with the brain and the moron perhaps) while I sit here in Mumbai, typing this blog:-)
So...so Crushes it is. I wonder how the term crush is derived. Crush has such a powerful, forceful, vengeful sound to it. May be that is what made someone come up with the term. So the focus is on my crushes - obviously! I'll keep the names concealed not because I am not proud of any of my series of crushes but just because I see the names as "not-necessary" in this context. The feel of my crushes or the way they evolved is more what I want to talk about. I hope you can connect with me:-)
Long before I learned how to read or add or subtract, I had a crush on my dad. yeah, kind of text book, kind of the thing you would hear form any well brought-up girl. And then came that guy in my class. I was in primary school but was old enough to know that the whole girl population in the class was crushing on him along my side. It was tough competition but I wish I had the nerve to tell him what I felt. He left the school and it was all out of mind the moment it was out of sight. But it was pretty powerful as long as it lasted.
Then I'd seen this guy in a dream like state, a real person though, that was ...possibly in middle school and had a crush on him. This was the biggest, most powerful crushes of mine. It lasted till I found my soul mate. Yeah, I told you, a pretty strong one:-)
Now Bobby Deol, Sachin Tendulkar, Rahul Khanna, Anil Kumble, Hrithik Roshan that guy I met in my sister's college, the English prof with grey hair and the short, stocky computer sir with thick glasses are all not discounted but are there, just reminding me of my many stages of evolving, of growing up:-) Looking back, I find that I'd crushed on a variety of people for a variety of reasons and the physical attraction seldom came into play. So attraction is actually so multi dimensional. Did some one say Love is blind? Crushes are in a way partially blind....a stage when you actually tend to look beyond what meets the eye to assimilate the part that meets it:-)In a way crushes are also chronicles of your mind set, your age, your likes, dislikes, vulnerabilities and impressions. Crushes are not as profound as love but equally powerful and life altering, just reminding us of our journey towards finding ourselves in our true partners:-)